Big Love

I just finished reading a fun book about fat body acceptance. I enjoyed the message and how easy it was to read--I'd been feeling body-negative and very self-pressured to diet for the last week or so. This book helped remind me of how fantastic my body is and that life doesn't begin if/when I lose weight. Part of Intuitive Eating/Health At Every Size is not trying to lose weight and being okay with the fact that eating intuitively may never lead to weight loss. Boy. Talk about heavy (ha!).

I've struggle with this idea. I'm feeling more okay with the idea that I might always be this size; after all, this (1.5 years) is the longest I have ever been at any weight. I have to admit that my body appears to be comfortable here.

So, it's time to own it! My body is large. My body is beautiful. My body has luscious curves and is capable of giving and receiving affection. My body carries and protects me. My body moves in connection with the earth. My body tells me what I need. If I were a size zero or a 10X, it would still do these same things. My body will always be mine and deserves love, compassion, fun, and movement.

There will be times that I don't always feel so good about my body. To maintain a positive body image, I will:

• Have a fabulous wardrobe. Never buy clothes that are too small.
• Not engage in negative self-talk.
• Continue therapy.
• Go to yoga and walk. Revel in what this lovely frame can do.
• Never feel ashamed of my body. Give myself compliments every time I stand in front of a mirror.
• Stand up for myself when others comment on my weight.
• Not use food to soothe myself.

I'm digging this body today. I plan to do my best to feel this way always. :)