Today's topic was forgiveness. This wasn't a very moving day for me. I did the exercises, sure, but I'm not feeling all that inspired. With all that said, here's how today went for me:

I wrote about what I need to forgive in light of my history of disordered eating:

• myself for silencing my body with food in an effort to create an impenetrable shell of fat
• myself for negative self-talk
• myself for letting others dictate how I should feel about my body
• others for the resentments I have that have influenced the way I eat (ate)
• my body for the pain I've gotten so angry at in the past
• myself for a lack of self-care

I know that all of my experiences have given me strength and tenacity. I know I can move from disordered eating to a healthy relationship with food. I'm so tired of holding my feelings in a creating a toxic environment. I have been held back by grudges and resentment. I want to be open to change and grace in my life again.

I couldn't do a full-blown practice today. My body hurt, my spirit was tired, and I just wanted to rest. I tried to do a longer practice, but my knees and my head ached. I ended up doing a guided imagery. It's still yoga...I mean, you can do a 30-minute savasana, right? ;) I used it as a effort to show compassion and forgiveness to my body. It was hard to forgive myself for not doing a more intensive practice, but it was just what I needed.